For Me This Is Heaven

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There is so much to be said for recognizing when you’re not as happy as you could be, and then thoughtfully guiding the wheel in a new direction to gently correct the course.

I was a late driver for several reasons: lack of funds to buy a car, lack of time to properly learn (my parents worked long hours and my school had no driver education class), but most notably, the day my mom gave me my first taste of being in the driver’s seat, we were navigating a normally quiet neighborhood that was suddenly besieged by every manner of emergency vehicle imaginable. It turns out, I had unknowingly driven right into a domestic hostage situation. The experience shook me up so badly, I felt the anxiety rise like a diaphanous, ever-present ghost whenever I got behind the wheel thereafter. It wasn’t until I was nearly 21 that I got my license (needfully; my mom firmly believed that children shouldn’t live at home past 21, and I was summarily kicked out). For the first several weeks, I drove like a frightened bird, white-knuckling the wheel with a death grip, so alert that I felt like my synapses might ignite. Then one day I picked up my best friend to go to see a film, and he saw the stricken look of anxiety on my face. “Screw the movie,” he said. He buckled his seat belt, slipped a mix I’d made him into the CD player, and said: “Let’s drive.”

That day was the first one that I ever really listened to music whilst driving, and with Sam inching the volume ever-upward and singing lustily in the seat next to me, I finally began to relax and enjoy myself. After that day, my driving was emboldened; I went for longer distances to visit friends and see interesting, heretofore unexplored sights. And I discovered that one of my favorite pastimes was just driving for long stretches of time with no particular destination: windows down, music up high, wind whipping and plaiting my hair, and my soulfully singing voice my only companion as the miles stretched ever onward.

These last several days, where SL blogging is concerned, I feel like I’ve really started to tear the map and begin plotting my new course. I’ve always said that I’m a writer first and a photographer second, and a fashion blogger/stylist … well, I feel no shame in admitting that those are a distant third. I love our virtual world’s designers and brands, they inspire me daily and I’m ever in awe of all they accomplish. But celebrating fashion to its fullest isn’t truly wear my heart lies. For those gracious and understanding designers who don’t mind, or may even appreciate, that I’ll hopefully be showing their wares in more poetically-motivated pictures going forward, I’m tremendously grateful. And for those who prefer the more classic fashion blogs and photos, I understand completely, with great respect and appreciation. But to find the route to my most genuine happiness, I’m longing to do as Robert Frost bade, and take the road less traveled by. And with any luck, that will make all the difference. ♡


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“And the mindless comfort grows,
When I’m alone with my great plans
And this is what she says gets her through it:
‘If I don’t let myself be happy now, then when?
If not now, when?‘”

Look

Maitreya Body – Lara v3.5
Genesis Lab Head & Skin – Melissa
Avi-Glam Eyes – Elysian Eyes (Basil) New Release @ Cosmopolitan, through July 16th *
Opale Hair – Gisele (Red Pack) New Release @ Dreamful, through July 22nd *
Nanika Tattoo – Zara (in White for Maitreya, Belleza, Slink & Omega) New Release @ On9, through July 28th *

Style & Pose

Kunglers Jewelry – Sampaguita Earrings (Rose) New Release @ On9, through July 28th *
Ricielli Top – Lily Minitop (Desert) New Release @ Shiny Shabby, through July 15th *
Label Motion Pose – Brenda Pose 2 *

Destination & Inspiration

✈ Sights: The Bay Reborn
🎧 Sounds: Jimmy Eat World – For Me This Is Heaven

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31 thoughts on “For Me This Is Heaven

    Boudicca said:
    July 12, 2016 at 8:14 am

    Good luck and best wishes for the future…..doing what makes you happiest and most fulfilled! :)
    B x

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 5:58 am

      Thank you tremendously, Boudicca! You’re so right: happiness and fulfillment are essential. Truly appreciate your support, dear lady! ♥

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    Moonsoul Resident said:
    July 12, 2016 at 9:05 am

    Good luck in your new adventures! I am so looking forward to see where you’re going now:)

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 5:59 am

      Awww, thank you so very much, Moonsoul! I’m not entirely certain where I’m going, but I hope to enjoy the journey. :D Big hugs for you! ♥

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    thehaydeenway said:
    July 12, 2016 at 9:15 am

    How beautiful Ever ♥

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 5:59 am

      Thank you so much Haydeen, I truly appreciate your kindness! ♥

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    Moz Loordes said:
    July 12, 2016 at 9:32 am

    Heheh! I’m all for the poet’s route :) Great reminiscing about your driving, Ever, have to confess I read your blog for the writing first and the appreciation of beauty second.

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:00 am

      Bless your kind and lovely heart, Moz! Thank you so much, I’m truly honored that you do, and it’s always such a pleasure reading your lovely words. Big hugs for you, dear friend! ♥

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    Gia Swizzle said:
    July 12, 2016 at 10:24 am

    What a great read, I can not wait to see where your travels take you 🛣

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:02 am

      Thank you SO much, beautiful Gia! I’ll still keep on with some fashiony stuff (because SHOPPING!) but there’s so much amazing art in Second Life that I’ve never made time to explore, not to mention all the interesting destinations, so we’ll see where this leads. As always, your support and kindness are so deeply appreciated! ♥

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        Gia Swizzle said:
        July 14, 2016 at 7:35 pm

        I am in utter agreeance with you on the art and building of other SL Residents. I think also, it can or is a responsibility for us blogger’s to showcase the many places in SL to explore. To exhibit the way one puts together a Region within our community I think/showcases art, is vital to the heart of this virtual world.

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    serenestyle said:
    July 12, 2016 at 2:25 pm

    I love reading your blog, your style of blogging is my favorite type of blog to visit AND return to. Looking forward to being with you as a follower on this journey :)

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:06 am

      That is such a lovely, wonderful compliment, Serene! Thank you SO much, I’m genuinely honored and delighted that you like my blog. Massive appreciation for you, dear lady! ♥

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    dearrasilbersztein said:
    July 12, 2016 at 3:49 pm

    I love that songggg :) And also… I can relate with the thing about the driving… I am still kinda frightened bird in the city, but in a open road – I’m fearless, ahha :D

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:07 am

      Yay, Dearra! I’m so happy you love that song, it’s one of the first ones I remember being obsessed with as a great driving tune. :D And I know what you mean about city driving versus the open road – give me an open, stretchy highway any day. Bliss! Thank you so much for commenting! ♥

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    Charly Keating said:
    July 13, 2016 at 12:08 am

    Ever!!! Ever!! Ever!! Girl you got the mad skills when it comes to writing! LOVE this! I can sooo remember when I learned to drive. I’m (deep cough) more then likely old enough to be your…………umm lets say OLDER sister shall we?? Laughs….but I remember it like it was yesterday. My first car had an 8 Track in it, and I would blast that sucker so loud! Now your probably thinking “8 track? What the heck is Charly on about?” Lets just say they don’t make um like they used to! And NO seat belts…laughs. I LOVE this expert of your life. Your writing is incredible! Bravo!!! <33

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:10 am

      Flickr Sis!! ♥ Oh my stars, 8 tracks! I think my dad had one in his old, dilapidated car but I grew up right around the time of the vinyl-to-cassette transition. So I think that totally still qualities you to be my *slightly* older, MUCH more lovely and foxy sister. :D Thank you so much for your incredible encouragement and support, my dear sweet Charly. You’re the best! ♥

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    Cara said:
    July 13, 2016 at 12:36 am

    Beautiful photo, Ever! I look forward to seeing your ‘new’ work! <3

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:11 am

      Thank you SO much, Cara! I’m so delighted that you look forward to it, I really appreciate that! ♥

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    Mariana Barthelmess said:
    July 13, 2016 at 3:00 am

    Good luck on your new journey , I ‘m sure you will do a great job !! ♥

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:11 am

      Thank you tremendously, Mariana! Your support is really appreciated, so kind of you! ♥

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    the dune mouse said:
    July 13, 2016 at 8:49 am

    Fashion has never been my shtick either. I see you have many followers and likers on your posts which I find unusual on virtual blogs!! Your writings are so thoughtful and always accompanied by beautiful images. Keep up the good work whichever road less traveled!!

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:12 am

      Awwww, thank you so much Cybele! Your blog, your writings, and your photographs attract many admirers and appreciations, and they’re all so well deserved. Here’s to blazing new paths and seeing where they lead! Warm hugs and lots of appreciation for you, dear lady. ♥

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        the dune mouse said:
        July 14, 2016 at 10:42 am

        Though I too am a writer first (or teller of tales)I have a harder time putting out my personal thoughts and experiences of life though I enjoy keeping a travel journal (-when I am able). I will follow with interest where your footsteps lead.

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    Miya said:
    July 13, 2016 at 10:08 am

    Go with your heart!!! For me reading your blog is a glimpse into your life, thoughts and writing. Your blog transcend SL fashion – and quite frankly I never read it as a fashion blog. Instead I revel at your RL impressions, insights and exploits. Like a good story they often provide triggers into my own memory and “isms”.

    For me SL is a vehicle to embellish my ideas, thoughts, moods, etc…reading a writer who explore beyond SL, especially one who can fuse their RL experiences for their audience is a writer – one of my university profs once told me “if you’ve read it, you could have written it”.

    Oh just a quick one – I still don’t have my drivers license – 3 road test and three fails:
    1. I forced an coming driver off the road as I entered a construction zone. Well, I didn’t see the yellow construction sign since my eyes were focused ahead. The other driver literally had to drive in the side walk and my horrified instructor failed me.
    2. Did not see a stop sign!
    3. After learning how to drive into and out of a parking spot, my test was parallel parking. Well heck who parallel parks in the suburbs!

    I take the metro, bus or commuter train, or I have a driver. It’s my zen time to write, read, and listen to music. Most of my best work is written on the train XD.

    This is to simply say I write what catches my fancy – a stirred memory, a song, my SL or RL adventures – but most of all sharing my voice:)

    Hugs to you in your journey into expressing what’s within without:)

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 6:15 am

      Such a wonderful comment, Miya! Thank you so much for your incredible support and wonderful insights; oh goodness, your road test traumas are something I can relate to SO much. As for parallel parking, it’s been so long since I’ve had to do it, I would be a complete mess. Thank goodness for ample parking lots all over the suburbs! :) I’m so delighted and appreciative that my writings trigger your own memories and “isms” – that’s such a fantastic compliment and a true pleasure to read. Hugs to you and here’s to genuine, heartfelt self-expression always! ♥

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    readmeri said:
    July 14, 2016 at 7:39 am

    Aww, the heart wants what it will Ever. I’m so glad you’re doing this, for you x

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 14, 2016 at 8:09 am

      Thank you so much, Meri! Your support and encouragement really means so much to me. Tremendous appreciation for you! ♥

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    Cougar Sangria said:
    July 14, 2016 at 5:37 pm

    You made me smile as I remembered my first driving lessons. You have also given me some food for thought. Thank you♥

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      Ever Amaranthine responded:
      July 27, 2016 at 11:07 pm

      Awww, that’s such a pleasure for me to know, thank you so much, Cougar! Big hugs for you, dear lady! ♥

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